Wednesday, April 22, 2009
sleepy-time trio
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
window unto heaven
Monday, April 13, 2009
let us be attentive
For the first time since I returned home from India, I am confronted by a full house with all of its implications. My brother, visiting from Spain, is listening to an old funk album in the next room. My mother is frying sausage in the kitchen, and I can hear my sister and her roommate typing away at homework projects. I had become very used to the emptiness of this place, as I related in a previous blog post. Even my fourteen-year-old dog is animated, hobbling around the house in an attempt to maintain balance. It is so good to see the family--to see this place full of life the way it once was. The atmosphere of sadness and loss that seemed to permeate the house after my father's passing two-years-ago has finally lifted--even if only for the moment.
At the same time, I've found myself contemplating silence, solitude, and stillness (notice my fondness for alliteration) these last few days. I doubt that it has as much to do with my family as this Seraphim Rose biography. I don't think that I've come to any grand conclusions about silence or a quiet-heart. At least, I haven't come to any conclusions that haven't already been expounded by the great Saints of the Orthodox faith: St. Seraphim of Sarov, St. John Climacus, St. Isaac of Syria, and others. I don't feel any great need to expound upon the silent disposition. Rather, it suffices simply to acknowledge its importance.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
"It is later than you think!"
Although I've attempted to hold off opening this biography in order to first finish Experience the Mystery, I must admit that I've already found myself reading random paragraphs. I'm definitely looking forward to getting into it. At one point I commented on this blog that I planned on writing an icon of Blessed Seraphim Rose during the process of reading the biography, but I don't know if that's really going to happen. The icons floating around are of such high and ornate quality that I honestly don't know if I can reproduce it. I guess I could try and fashion my own from one of the various photographs, but that's going to have to wait. I've been getting a lot of work done on my icons: Sts Herman of Alaska, Nektarios, and the Theotokos with Christ. I'll post some photographs soon and hopefully even get some sort of slide-show started.
Monday, April 6, 2009
spiritual growth
"Plants are the wisest of teachers and the best of models. For they turn toward Light. They yearn for water. They cherish clean air. Their roots dig deep, while their reach is high. They are satisfied and sustained with so little. They transform and multiply everything that they draw from nature, including some things that appear wasteful or useless. They adapt spontaneously and produce abundantly--whether for the nourishment or admiration of others. They enjoy a microcosm of their own while contributing to the macrocosm around them" (Pat. Bartholomew 105).
Needless to say, it was so nice to see all the pretty flowers, spend some time with my fiance, and have the opportunity to read in peace. Now I can type under a colorful and vibrant bouquet which found its way onto my dining-room table.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Wonderworking Kursk Root Icon of our Lady of the Sign
Needless to say, I became pretty curious as to what inspired such devotion in this icon as opposed to all the other beautiful pieces around the church. I had read stories in the church bulletins about icons that would shed tears or myrrh. Straining my eyes to investigate the blue icon in the candlelight, I was happy that I had arrived early enough to take a standing spot right next to it. I knew that it must be one of those crying icons for people to line up and cry themselves that way. Alas, I couldn't see a single tear running down the Theotokos' face. Regardless, I do believe that I witnessed a glowing miracle that morning. It wasn't so much in the icon as my fellow church-goers. In all my years of attending churches from Anabaptist to Roman Catholic to Russian Orthodox, I don't think that I've ever seen such an expression of true faith in my life. Of course, I don't mean to say that I haven't seen people cry or demonstrate genuine religious emotions. Far from it! But here at St. John the Baptist it was obvious that the people believed that they were in the presence of something truly holy--something which pointed beyond itself to the great power and goodness of Christ depicted there on the icon. They couldn't help but prostrate themselves on the ground before it even if it was Sunday. I count myself blessed to have been a witness to their joy and devotion, even if I didn't know the great history of the Kursk-root icon at the time.
Monday, March 30, 2009
sign of the cross
First of all, this isn't actually the first reference that I've seen to the Hebrew term 'Shekinah'. My previous experience with the concept actually comes from Jewish Holocaust theology, and I believe that the term is often associated with Kabbalah mysticism. The book that I read on the subject was called Finding the Female Face of God in Auschwitz. The author related various means by which Holocaust victims would attempt to maintain their religious practices and purity in the deliberately filthy and guttural space of the concentration camp. By finding ways to light Sabbath candles and follow other Jewish observances, the victims were able to create a sacred place for the Shekinah--the presence of God. Naturally, the suffering and death of the Holocaust created all sorts of unpleasant religious questions for the surviving Jewish community, and many have asked where God was in all of it. The author, however, asserts that Shekinah was right there amongst its followers and suffering alongside them.
After reading the blog which mentions this interesting Syrian tradition, I looked up from my glowing computer screen to see a simple wooden cross hanging in the room beside me. I was moved at the thought that God might actually be so close to me--close enough for me to touch and kiss and beg forgiveness. I marvelled at the little object and the idea that I might genuinely be in the presence of the divine. Then I remembered, don't we venerate and praise "The Spirit of truth, who fillest all things"? (emphasis added) As the writer of Glory to God for All Things rightly notes, the really important realization isn't that God is in that little cross nor--as in the pantheistic worldview--in all the material objects around us. What we need to wrap our heads around is that the divine is, in fact, more real and present than the things which we perceive and interact with. And it is this reality that really moved me to a state of fear and trembling. As we bow for the morning and evening prayer, God is more real and present than the icons and candles before us. This experience of the very serious presence of the Trinity is perhaps one of the single most important truths in Orthodox Christianity.
"Truth is beheld; it is not understood intellectually. God is seen; he is not examined theoretically. Beauty is perceived; it is not speculated about abstractly" -Ecumenical Patriarch Bartholomew